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Betwixt The Roiling Walls

The colors shift, and I too am there. Walls are built up in tumbling waves and the sun chitters through like a transmission lost. Darkness encloses and the tumbling ends, serenity at last. A death knell for a kingdom unbuilt, serenity at last. Climbing the unseen rungs, she spirals through a sparkling haze and then she disappears. It is then that I realize, before I, too, spiral down, that she was the city and I too will be. Climbing too high; too fast…only to be pulled back down. Breathless and defeated, never to return. Or will we? I look to the chaos around me and see flickers of life; I am reminded that everything is a cycle. Just as “she” rose and fell, I wonder how many others have come before…and how many others will come after? Who will be me, and who will be her? Will our names be the same, and were they ever before? I feel that to know something, you must know it’s true name. So then I wonder, who am I? Who am I, truly? Ah, but the thought fades as I descend and the walls push in. But as I forget my pleading and reasoning, an inkling of myself returns and I say farewell to the only true names that I truly know. Farewell Sky. Farewell Light. Farewell Light. Farewell Atlantis.



I am waiting. But waiting never seems quite as long when you are not alone. Having nothing to do is quite alright when in the company of friends. But remember, it is not companionship that speeds time; rather, connection. Nor is it friendship that washes out boredom; rather, the comfort of knowing you are not alone. I can survive alone; I can get through the days and months, distracting and keeping myself occupied. I can survive, but I can not live in solitude. Humans were not meant to be alone. The idea of all the friendless outcasts, and everyone who is living their lives without any companionship, having no one to distract them, no one to wait with, breaks my heart. It is strange how, even though we are surrounded by others, we can feel so isolated and alone. I sometimes wonder if actually living in solitude, somewhere in the wilderness, would be favorable to living in solitude surrounded by people who you can’t turn to.